Laziness Wounded Me 😪

Never have I been this lazy. If I were to plot a graph, September would be the peak of it. I think I know why-but what’s the essence of giving excuses?

Now, let me describe this laziness. I’d love to know if you’ve experienced this particular type before because I believe laziness isn’t one-size-fits-all. There are shades, there are patterns, and sometimes, there are seasons of it.

The Season of Rest That Became a Trap

September was hectic. My hospital postings drained me. I either came back late and exhausted or came back hungry. Some evenings, calls and responsibilities stretched till 9 pm. It was a lot. So when I finally got back to the hostel, one thought rang loud in my head: “Favour, rest before you break down.”And rest, I did. Again. And again. And again. It soon became a cycle.

My body wanted it, my mind justified it, and my habits embraced it. I convinced myself that every free moment needed to be “recovery time.” The problem? Rest became my default answer, even when I had just enough strength to get something done. I wired my brain into believing that rest was the only thing I owed myself. That was where I made the mistake.

The Backlog Monster

As the days rolled by, my backlog grew like an uninvited guest that refused to leave. Tasks piled up. Opportunities slipped away. I even got a personal assistant to help, but it didn’t solve the deeper problem – me. I hated the backlog, yet it kept growing.

In trying to fix it, I juggled too many things at once, got tired easily, and ended up with more frustration than progress. And here’s the irony: I’ve achieved a lot this year, but there’s still so much I know could have been done. Imagine writing my second blog this week when it should have been the fourth, and it’s not even a Wednesday.

Dear Winnies, the truth is, laziness wears many disguises. Sometimes it’s procrastination, sometimes distraction, and sometimes – like mine, it hides under the noble excuse of “rest.”

What I’ve Learned

I’m not sharing this so you beat yourself up the next time you fall short of your plans. No. I’m sharing this so you pause and ask yourself: “Did I really give my best, or did I let something, maybe even laziness in disguise—hold me back?”

Here are mistakes I never want to repeat, and maybe they’ll help you too:

●1. Rest is good, but discipline is better: Rest is a gift, not a lifestyle. When it becomes your default answer to everything, you’ll miss the joy of small daily wins.

●2. Backlogs are heavier than the task itself: The weight of undone work is far more draining than doing the work in bits. Don’t feed the backlog, it’s a monster.

●3. Balance is not 50/50, it’s intentionality: Some days, you’ll rest more. Other days, you’ll grind harder. The point is not to let one completely erase the other.

●4. Your brain believes what you repeatedly tell it: I kept telling myself, “You need to rest.” And soon, my brain accepted it as truth, even when I had enough energy to do something productive. Feed your mind with action-driven affirmations, not excuses.

●5. Do not romanticize laziness: It’s tempting to call it “self-care” every time, but true self-care also includes doing what your future self will thank you for.

Final Words

Laziness wounded me, but it also taught me. It reminded me that achievement is not about perfection, but about showing up consistently, even in small ways. So, if you find yourself in a similar season, don’t wallow in guilt. Don’t justify it endlessly either.

Instead, pause, question yourself, and decide to do better.Because in the end, your dreams won’t wait for when you “feel ready.” They grow when you decide that excuses, no matter how noble, don’t get to win.

✨ Here’s my encouragement to you: check yourself today. Not with condemnation, but with clarity. What have you been excusing? And what little step can you take now, before the backlog grows into a burden?

Till I drop my next post, stay chilled and love yourself more ✨️❤️